This Is A Story Of A Girl Who Cried A River And Drowned The Whole World!

Friday, December 28, 2012

Only One



Follow the star to a place unexpected
Would you believe, after all we've projected,
A child in a manger?
Lowly and small, the weakest of all
Unlikeliest hero, wrapped in his mother's shawl
Just a child - Is this who we've waited for? 'cause..

How many kings step down from their thrones?
How many lords have abandoned their homes?
How many greats have become the least for me?
And how many gods have poured out their hearts
To romance a world that is torn all apart
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?

Bringing our gifts for the newborn Savior
All that we have, whether costly or meek
Because we believe.
Gold for his honor, and frankincense for his pleasure
And myrrh for the cross he will suffer
Do you believe?
Is this who we've waited for?

Thursday, December 27, 2012

Christmas!

Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart.


This hat actually kept me head warm.

Christmas Eve
- We had Christmas Eve dinner in church! Saboteur all the way! And everyone kept asking me how was my white Christmas, sadly it isn't snowing here. After the dinner we head over to Ream's place and got home at 4something in the morning.Well, at least we did something different after counting down. 


No White Christmas
- While everyone was telling and asking how was their Christmas and hope you enjoy your Christmas/White Christmas, it's actually quite sad over here. No place to go because most shops are closed. So the only place to go was to Hilary's place. While she was at work, Christine and I decorated her door with sticky notes (random idea that just came up).
- hope she likes it *smiles*
- Then we went over to Power House for fellowship, played CSI. I tell you, it was fun in the beginning, but during the ending part - your brain can literally burst I tell you, maybe it's just me, low in IQ - but at least I guessed the right culprit in the end! *whee* We went home at around 5am, I enjoyed listening to the birds chirping, admiring the bright moon and stars - all these no matter how well you try to capture it in a camera, it still can't be compared with our very own eyes. Things that can't be captured but to be admired.

Wednesday 26th
- A very well spent half day with Hannah - company and dinner.

Updates!

You don’t get huge victories without huge battles.

Caroling
- Will you be surprised if I told you this was my very first caroling? I was very excited about it and during the second day of caroling, I get the opportunity to play the guitar, with a senior of course. Honestly, when I came over, I really thought that I won't get the chance to serve again. But now I really Thank God for the opportunity He had given me.

Christmas Carol Concert
- Everything went smoothly, Thank God! I joined the choir group, and we sang 2 carol songs. Boy, I can tell you that I miss the practices that we normally have on every Mondays. After the event, we went to McD for supper. While everyone or most was enjoying their food and fellowship, I was having a great time catching up Christine (old school mate) we talked non-stop.

Pre Camp
- I stayed over at Caryn's place aka Power House for Praise and Worship practice. Again, really Thank God for the opportunity to serve in one of the session. I am super rusty. Also, the weather here enhance the perspiration of my palms. Imagine playing halfway, it became so slippery. Then the night ended with a good pillow talk with Sue Jan (Yeap, you read it right, just without an 'e').

Church Camp! 
- I think I only had 2 hours of sleep the night before, but it didn't stopped me from being super excited and hyper in the bus. I can really tell you that I enjoyed catching up with Christine throughout the journey. But the worst part has yet to come, my battery was running low when we were about to reach. All in all, in most camps you won't get enough sleep and you don't mind staying up chatting and playing Saboteur. So on the first night and first Praise & Worship session, I had fun but I made some mistakes (reminder: I'm doing it for God). Also, throughout the camp I was reminded of the very first time I stepped into HOPE fellowship and how I came to know about this family (I love this family of God) I really do.

Post Camp
- I fell sick on the 3rd month I was here. Down with fever, flu and sore throat. And the most stressing part wasn't the sickness but the assignment due at 4pm! Surprisingly, I was filled with peace and my progress was fast, then later I received a messaged saying that I will have to put my work on hold for awhile (puzzled) I hear people calling out at my window to open the door (let me tell you, I really didn't expect people to come all the way to pray for me, cooked porridge for me and made honey lemon for me) Thank You Daddy God for all my brothers and sisters in Christ!


Wednesday 19th
- I missed bible study because I was still sick. And the most interesting thing that happened was hearing weird sounds. Not what you think but the sound of pleasurable love. Really can't believe I was listening to it, and Ben is only 19 this year (my flatmate staying beside me). Anyway, I was more touched that I got porridge from Caryn and Bridget, not forgetting the deliverers - Hannah and Ariel was soak in rain (awwh).

Thursday 20th
- Alex gave me his leftover eggs and lend me his hard disk so I won't get bored over the holidays. But those weird sounds are getting on my nerves (yes, again and again and again) distracting my work.

Winter Wonderland
- So I only had 2 hours of sleep, gatto finish up my assignment before leaving to Winter Wonderland in London. During my 'break time' I decided to check Facebook and the first news I saw was regarding Hammie - He past away. Initially I didn't believe, but after a few minutes pictures were up and I couldn't stand but to mourn (I know it's just a Hamster but it has a special place in my heart) Being so depressed, I later received an email regarding the result of a group coursework with only 62% 'sigh' and my day became even worst when I read the feedback from the lecturer that we didn't submit our slides and I was the one in charged to submit (I did submit but apparently we must submit together with the report, not separately - it was settled in the end) One after another, I'm glad it was all over, we went to Winter Wonderland and I only get to sit a ride (a ride that I get to scream my hearts out) Yea, I feel so much better after that. Come to think of it, I really Thank God for caring people like Caryn. After much excitement we went back to Hatfield and watch White Chicks together at Power House.

Saturday 22nd
- I stayed over at Hilary's place the night before after White Chicks. Woke up late and had late lunch cooked by Christine! 

Sunday 23rd
- Sunday service at St John, normally it's in campus. Later in the evening we celebrated Jessie's birthday. And let me just tell you that random stuff can just happen and we decided to watch Life of Pi after that. From this day onwards my sleeping time is like an owl. 

Fun Fact
- If you have realized, in a fellowship like HELP CF, HOPE and etc etc we prolong our goodbyes every single time. We can say up to a 100 byes and hugs but still feel reluctant to leave. Now you can understand why Moses took 40 years to lead the Israelites to the Promise Land (just saying).

Sunday, December 9, 2012

Strolling

God wants you. He delights in you. You don’t have to be like everybody else.

The Stroll
Strolling around campus admiring God's creation,
the nature, environment, clouds blown by the wind,
houses build by God's gift given to man - brains,
also things that cannot be seen - the wind,
blushing through my face,
the cold icy feeling that gives you chills off and on *shivers*

As I wonder and question myself again and again,
the answers will soon be unfold one day,
like a puzzle being fitted into its form,
and until that day,
I shall see the whole picture frame of Your plan You have for me.

God’s heart is to do you good. He wants you to come out with more at the end of the day than you started the day with. The enemy of your soul wants you to come out with less. 

Thursday, December 6, 2012

Fact

Do you know:
Every person you lay eyes on throughout your entire life is someone God died for? Someone who is tremendously precious to our God. 
This very phrase made me reconsider why we are called to love our neighbors as ourselves – including the ones we may not like..

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Influencing? How?

Influencing and changing people around us - family, friends, co-workers and fellow believers is a direct part of our calling in Christ. So what are the keys to that influence?

(1) A spiritual perspective that believes invisible powers like prayer and love affects our world more than anything we can do naturally;

(2) A determination to model in our own life the very behaviors and priorities we want to see develop in others. What we do has more weight than what we say;


(3) A long-term approach that doesn't insist on immediate change in others, but recognizes that it took a long time for people to become the way they are, and it will take awhile for them to become different;

(4) Lots and lots of love for who they really are (and what they can become) - as opposed to lots and lots of judgment/criticism for what's wrong with them;

(5) And lastly, remembering to live by the two practical truths Jesus shared with us: 
a) act toward others as you'd like to be treated, and 
b) the speck you see in their life simply alerts you to the big board in your own.


P/S: IT SNOWED TODAY!!! Literally glide/slide on the snow *so slippery*

Tuesday, December 4, 2012

Dance!

One good point of having your own room,
you get to dance your heart out without worrying anyone looking at you! *well, except one of course, the one that you can't hide anything from* Bet He's dancing with me as well! Woohooo~! What a good way to turn your frown upside down!



If He goes to the left then we'll go to the left
And if He goes to the right then we'll go to the right
We're going to jump jump jump jump in the river
Jump jump jump jump, everybody!

If He goes to the left then we'll go to the left
And if He goes to the right then we'll go to the right
We're going to dance dance, dance dance in the river
Dance dance, dance dance, everybody!

Presentation!

I think I did badly, I wonder why I was so nervous and anxious..
Anyway, Daddy God I surrender all to You!



Another one tomorrow!

Monday, December 3, 2012

Don't know

Right here right now,
pondering to myself, "Why aren't you scared?"
I feel so stressed because I don't feel stress at all!
Is it a good thing or a bad thing?
I have a presentation tomorrow, but I haven't even started doing my slides..
Such disappointment.. 
Jane ah Jane..
I miss expressing myself through words..
Sometimes I don't even know the answers to my own questions..
Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing..
Sometimes I don't know if I could trust people..
and sometimes I just don't know what to say..
or what I'm doing and what I just said..

-7 more months till the end of degree-

*don't know if i should be happy about it or otherwise*

Well, on the bright side!
- I enjoyed my very first caroling!
- looking forward to this coming Saturday as well

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Hello December!

Time is of the essence! And December is already here!

Hello Mummy!
I only know my mom reads my blog *wink*
Sorry for not updating for awhile, let me share some highlights..

So Surreal!
Last Monday on the 26th November, Caryn Ng messaged to asked for my mom's name. I felt a lil bit weird, why would someone suddenly got so interested about my mom's name. Then, only to found out that our moms were actually schoolmates! My mom was contacting her mom all the while to find out more about Hatfield and the UK! The worst part was that my mom wanted to give me Caryn's number just in case I got lost or needed help, and to my stubbornness of not wanting to trouble anyone, I said no. So all the while thinking of who that person was and the possibilities of meeting up would be impossible, I somehow forget about it. And well well, little to my surprise! HOPE brought us together! This totally made my day! The funny thing was that we both contacted each other through Facebook from Christine. WOW moment for me!

Friendliest Cat!
On the 29th, when I was walking back from practice, I saw this fat fluffy black and white cat sitting beside the pathway. As the normal usual me, I started calling the cat and to my surprise, the cat responded! It was the friendliest and manja-est cat I've ever met in UK so far! The rest are just pure scary cats..

Also, in the morning my web design lecturer gave out our marks for our second assignment. I got 63. Well, dropped 5% if compared to the first assignment. Needless to say, but to Thank God for it! I actually never expected to have more than 60 but less than that. And to my surprise as well, lecturer told me that the web looked professional *whoa* except for the animated Flash of course *Click to see*

Cooperative Flatmates!
Remember me complaining about them at one point? Well, I really Thank God for showing me the other side of them as well. It was on the 30th Friday. The English group of the college lane Fellowship was in charged to prepare dinner, so they decided to cook over at my place. So what I did to inform my flatmates was through a written note pasted on the kitchen door. Honestly, I wasn't expecting anything from them but to stay out from the kitchen from 4pm-7pm. And you know what, they cleaned and tidied up the kitchen for us! I was so shocked and touched! Really Thank God for them. After that night, I had a really good catch up with James an Maddie.

Last but not least!

Rediscover!
On the first of December, I attended church jamming session and prayer meeting as well. I've never felt so much joy in serving Him before. Not that I hadn't had before, I had it but I can't remember when and I lost the feeling of it after not serving for sometime when I first came here. I played the guitar, then the drums! *whoa* Never knew I could because I've never played the drum in services before even though I've picked up drumming. Prayer meeting was a reminder that He is always with me no matter where I am and what I'm doing, like even now when I'm typing this, He is just right beside me, watching over me.

All in all, THANK YOU LORD!
Can't wait for caroling! We're starting tomorrow! *excited*

You have allowed me to suffer much hardship, but you will restore me to life again and lift me up from the depths of the earth. Psalm 71:20

Thursday, November 22, 2012

2 Timothy 2:22

Flee the evil desires of youth and pursue righteousness, faith, love and peace, along with those who call on the Lord out of a pure heart. 
2 Timothy 2:22

Tuesday, November 20, 2012

Learning

The past few days and week has been pretty hectic..
And I've never felt so disappointed with myself before..
I'm so bad at Flash that the more I click the worst it became..
I couldn't save it but I did the best I can, still, the first unsatisfactory assignment I've ever done..

Aside from all the sadness, emo and disappointments..
What I have missed, is the point of all this mess!
The most important thing is the process of it all..
Learning..

Yes, though I did badly but I learned from it..
I didn't realized that I've learned and grown so much from this..
Thank You Lord for opening my eyes..


Dear brothers and sisters, when troubles come your way, consider it an opportunity for great joy. For you know that when your faith is tested, your endurance has a chance to grow. 
James 1:2-3

Monday, November 19, 2012

Comfort

Being taken out of your comfort zone is an opportunity to hear and see things that you normally would miss. When you get too comfortable in your surroundings and in your routine you can take things for granted and get lazy in your discernment. Set yourself to be watchful and pay attention so you won't miss the nuances. The spiritual benefits will far outweigh the discomfort of your present situation, says the Lord. 

Watch, stand fast in the faith, be brave, be strong. 1 Corinthians 16:13
 

- Marsha Burns

Wednesday, November 14, 2012

He's the sunlight

I used to worry my life away
Counting every cents
Shutting out the ones I loved
Never finding the time

And then one day I was overcome
By loneliness and despair
And deep inside I thought I heard
"Lean on me, I'm here"

Monday, November 12, 2012

HELLO!

"Hey! How are you? I am missing you! So do all of us here! Hope you are doing well, take care."

Reply
" Hey there! I'm doing pretty good I must say, and of course there are ups and downs. But I'm good. I miss you all as well! Really. Most and some of the things that I do, often reminded me of the things that we did together. Like the inside joke and our minds that think alike. Here, I'll just laugh to myself. Not to make myself sound so sad or anything, it's a good way of reminding me how each one of you have a very special place in my heart. I really do appreciate those who have taken the time to keep in touch through Whatsapp, Skype and Facebook messages. Though sometimes I may take awhile to reply, I'm so Sorry.

Just to share some of the events that happened recently. I volunteered myself in the school's heritage play and gotten the role as a dead soldier. Well, it was an experience getting to act with professional actors and actresses. Listening to their experiences broaden up my view as well. If you have been keeping up with my Twitter or Facebook status, I had make up on with beard and pale face. Not nice to be seen I think, so during the break I went off to my new friend found place, cuz where else can we go with the make up on our face. During the 2 hours at her place was a little bit tormenting. People were blasting rock music out loud, smoking, drinking and weeding. Gosh, I will never ever go to a stranger's home next time, at least get to know that person better. But no doubt they were actually great people, just the sin that puts me off.

Other than that, inspection week was last week. Boy I tell you, the kitchen was finally clean and clear. Sadly, after the inspection, everything was in a mess again. How I wish inspection was done in a weekly basis. Good for me but sad for them. Oh, I took out the rubbish the other day. I can tell you that British (not all but my flatmates) don't really know how to differentiate what can be recycled and what not. And, they have got lots of food waste. I can go really long regarding this but I shall pass.

Lastly, I've been trying to get myself involve in events like carols, sports, Christmas events, church camps and any events. Well some is confirmed and I don't know why I'm trying to make myself busy though I've got lots of assignments to be done. Guess it's just me. I miss HELP though. But I really do like it here as well. Free sports! And getting to try out new sports! I have my weekly routine of sports too! A really good way to release stress and meeting new people.

So I guess that's all. Really looking forward on reading your side as well. Take care! God bless *smiles*"

p/s: my wisdom tooth is finally growing out!

When we’re hurting, the most important thing we need is connection with others. As we learn to let them come close enough to see our pain and offer comfort, they can then help carry our burdens (Galatians 6:2).

Saturday, November 10, 2012

Hmm

Curious, isn't it, that Jesus was most criticized by the religious and political establishment, and hardly criticized, at all, by the sinful population.

Normal sinners were drawn to Him, healed and counseled by Him, and delivered by Him. Lepers, demoniacs, adulteresses, tax collectors blind ones (physically or spiritually), aliens and every other disreputable and unacceptable type of person found welcome in His presence. They were not required to change in order to draw near to Him. Instead, He drew near to them, so they could change.
 by Daniel A. Brown

Wednesday, November 7, 2012

1 Timothy 1:5

The purpose of my instruction is that all believers would be filled with love that comes from a pure heart, a clear conscience, and genuine faith. 
1 Timothy 1:5

Monday, November 5, 2012

Be Thankful

Assignments? Work? Exams? Issues? Problems?
We all know and somehow have experienced or have faced all these before, and not forgetting most are facing all the above. But one thing that we didn't see and realize, is to be Thankful.
How many get the chance to actually get into a university to study? To get an education in school? Get a work to make ends meet? But yet, we complain of waking up early in the morning for classes and work. Why don't we take all this frowns and stresses into a blessing in disguise? And be Thankful for what we have. A shelter above our head, food and drinks on our table and in our fridge. Money in our pockets. No matter what you're facing now, no matter how hard the situation is, remember you have people around you that cares for you and love you. So appreciate and be thankful for everything and everyone including yourself. Stop comparing and cherish your life to the fullest!

Saturday, November 3, 2012

Call Him, Maybe?

Call Him, Maybe?

The wise men came wishing well
And with the star they could tell
Which direction to take
And how to find their way

They came bearing their gifts
Bowed down, worshiped and kissed
But being told in a dream
Went back a different way

The angels brought a warning
Herod’s men were coming
Hot night, wind was blowing
Flee to Egypt with the baby

The shepherds falling asleep
Deep in the night tending sheep
Till the angels appeared
Shining bright as day

Singing glory to God
They were totally awed
And agreeing with a nod
They went on their way

The heavenly hosts were praising
The good news they were singing
Joyous songs were ringing
In Bethlehem you’ll find the baby

Hey, gotta tell you
And this is crazy
Born in a manger
Came Jesus baby

It’s hard to know right
Just who He would be
The King and Saviour
Called Jesus baby

Hey I just met you
And this is crazy
But he’s my saviour
So call Him, maybe?

And all the other things
Try to chain me
But He’s my saviour
So call Him, maybe?

Before He came into my life
I messed up so bad
I messed up so bad
I messed up so, so bad

Before He came into my life
I messed up so bad
And you should know that

So call Him, maybe?
By Andrew Tan

Friday, November 2, 2012

Hedgehog

Found out that Rushilan (Malaysian flatmate) is smoking, not sure if he pick it up here or he had already been smoking back in Malaysia. Sometimes seeing people smoke especially students, makes me sad. Especially without their parents knowing (of course right, who would). Just imagine their parents boasting and telling their relatives and friends that their kids are studying abroad, missing them, what course they're studying and then people start complementing you. But on the other side, look what you're doing. What if they found out? Sad isn't it. Well, you can't discriminate them, but to love them and hate their actions/sins.

Thursday
- sun start setting at 4pm, so by 5pm it is already dark
- I SAW A HEDGEHOG!! *my day is lifted up!* SO CUTE!! It sniffs like a dog! When I was approaching closer to snap a close up picture of it, I didn't realized that hedgehog was in its defense mode. No wonder it was so still. So when I put my camera away, I saw its spines standing up ready to poke me if I were to attack it *you can actually hear the spines standing up!*
- went to get my letters from the office *so cold!*
got my giffgaff number! more letters from the bank, and the funny thing is that I got a cheque book as well, and I don't even know how to use it *laughs*
- made an appointment with the Doctor tomorrow
- reading British politics for dummies

Friday
- adobe flash??? What's that??
- went to see the doctor/nurse and I Thank God for the good news, nothing's wrong with my toe, it is just an irritation from the new nail that was growing. So I'm good to go for sports! *happy!*
- got a free tshirt and hoodie from the points I've collected during active student sports
- It's Becky's 21st Birthday! (British flatmate) for the first time, the kitchen is SO CLEAN and decorated. We'll see the after party after place.
- back to journalism..

Wednesday, October 31, 2012

Halloween?

Tuesday
- Classes went well
- Went home and rest then off to ASDA and fellowship at Caryn's place
can't help much but to take pictures, had a good night..
- My big toe swell up, don't know why, but I think it'll cost pounds if I visit the doctor..
- thinking if I should get an ukulele, an instrument to relief stress, like right now all I can do is just play songs.. Sigh.. Ang mohs, why are you all so relax? Oh ya I forgot, you are all first years.. cheers

Wednesday
- 9 pages for a 50% assignment, 2k words!
- Help me Lord!
- dinner with dinner buddies
- skip roller blading for reading *but failed* AHHH!!
- skipped netball as well, for the leg and exhaustion *sigh*
- it's Halloween here, ignore all knocks on the window and doors..
as predicted, they celebrated Halloween here, so childish I tell you, in such a small flat how are you going to play hide and seek? I'm going to ask the accommodation officer if there's anything that can be done, like calling the security at night just to kick you all out because of the noise caused..
- other than that, I'm stressed up with this assignment..
- volunteered for a play, will be helping out next Thursday and Friday.. Looking forward to it, but at the same time, more assignments are piling up..
- I really don't want to flunk any of my papers!!
- Gosh, I really need to do something to release stress!!

Monday, October 29, 2012

Omnomnom

Ever wondered where "omnomnom" came from?
- Cookie Monster!

Sunday
- went Church halfway
- netball competition and we won!
- weather is getting really cold, don't think I would want to play outdoor anymore
- went back to church for lunch and bible study
- then dinner at Galeria with some CF-ers
had lots of fun! Maybe because I was sleepy I laughed at almost everything
especially the omnomnom dinosaur! *laughs*
- finished assignment!


Monday
- Bumming in
- Tried making half boiled eggs but failed! Over cooked..
well, better to be overcooked than undercooked right?
- 11 degrees
- Netball! Enjoyed it! I think I'm in loved with it!
I finally told coach that I can't commit on Sundays *church or netball*
should I apply for the Athletic Union? 75pounds is not cheap, but you get a hoodie for free, medical help if you're injured and you get to join the netball club..

Saturday, October 27, 2012

He is there

How much do you reflect on life goals?

Friday
- Woke up early in the morning for the first time when it's still dark
- Went to London and manage to find my way *excited*
- Meet up with Kirsten and it was a good time of catching up and visiting places along the way, but it was raining and drizzling off and on. Most importantly I had fun and it was a meaningful day! I felt like I had achieved something by traveling alone *reminded me when I first went down to KL myself*
- Made it on time for CF, we played saboteur after that *brings back memories of my fellow HELP committees*

God is there, even when His presence isn’t immediately felt.

Saturday
- Archery! It was a sunny day! But the wind and the cold makes it hard to shoot, I'm glad that I didn't go out of range though *didn't shoot any bunnies or squirrel*
- that morning I saw ice on the cars and one of my seniors here said that she saw snow early in the morning. Guess winter is coming soon! Gatto get good boots! Or freeze!
- finish up assignment due for journalism!! Parliament sketch! 

When did God’s providential hand work in your life in a way that you didn’t initially see? How have you felt God’s presence recently?

p/s: 8 hours behind Malaysia now. 1 hour extra for daylight saving.. 

Thursday, October 25, 2012

Time Flies

Time flies really fast here! It's Friday tomorrow!
Speaking of making a video, I wonder when.. 

Wednesday
- Class was an eye opener today in US Cinema class today,
my lecturer is a PHD holder and wow, he's really good at analyzing movies,
Creative way that I would never thought of *how he relates Adam and Eve*
- Netball outdoor for the first time was fun!
Wing defense all the way! *gatto learn how to defend better*
- Did laundry, irresponsible owners left their clothes cause the long line
- Roller blading wasn't that fun today *maybe because of the basketballers*
cannot blame them, I lost my confidence again *so scared of falling*
- speaking of that, if you don't fall you'll never learn..

Thursday
- got my mark for my first web design 62% so low, apparently when he opened my web site, one of the page wasn't align, what to do, bad timing. It's 20% for this though..
- New fridge! Thank you! And as usual they hog up the new fridge..
well at least I have my space in the old fridge..
- in the library reading up for my upcoming assignment due on Monday was interesting in the beginning, then I was super tired that I took a really short nap, and when I woke up to continue, the computer hanged up on me, so baliks la..
- listening to Journalism podcast by my lecturer, funny *but very insightful*
- I will complain if the person above me burst their loud stereo one more time
- remember that I wanted to join the netball inter game team? Well I didn't register myself but surprisingly I'm in one of the team. Will go for it this coming Sunday and hopefully tell them that I can't commit on Sundays. Since they are short this Sunday, I'll help.

I'll be off to London tomorrow and catch up with Kirsten!
Hopefully I can find my way.

Wednesday, October 24, 2012

Bananular Phone!

Another one! *self photo taking is still hard*


Happy Selamats Hari Jadi Lisa Tan!!
I'm so glad to have you as a friend! I do pray that our friendship will maintain and grow but not wilt! All the best for your final year! We can do it! Though we're in different places but let's finish the race strongly together! Gambateh yah! Don't give up!
And remember I'll be there for you!
So paiseh la *thick face*

Tuesday, October 23, 2012

Super Angry!

Wei! Who would ever put a milk in the freezer man! If you ever plan to experiment, why don't you put yours in as a specimen instead of mine? So inconsiderate! I know that the other fridge isn't working, so why don't you complain?? Anyway I went ahead of you, Thank you. This is not the first time but 3rd or 4th time, this shows that you've already reached the limit!

First, you all dirtied the kitchen, never clean up your mess, never wash your dishes, fridge filled with your things! Have you ever thought of others? You hog the whole place and if you've got no place you shift people's stuff without asking and the worst part is putting them into the spoiled fridge or the freezer! Think man! Have you got lost your mind??? *British accent* Are you going to replace all the spoiled food??

Next, you all drink and get drunk in the kitchen. Initially I didn't mind, but you all went off the limit again! Ask as much friends you like, drink and get crazy then scream and talk your lungs out in the middle of the night! I didn't mind the mess your friend did on the carpet but now its just too over! Be considerate! Hogging the kitchen or you may say it's your communal area is fun to do, I don't mind, but come on, I need to use the kitchen too you know. Please. *there are more to be written here, but the more I write the more I get angry, so I shall stop here*

Being a third year student here isn't easy.. Sigh..
I Thank God for the free sports they provided to lose out all the stresses I get here..
I'm grateful that I have a cook that cooks for us often..
I Thank God that I was reminded of being more of Him but less of me..
So I forgive you all!! But PLEASE do not repeat all of this again *if anyone of you are reading, and I doubt that* 

On a side note, I got back my 10pounds from ASDA.

Monday, October 22, 2012

Excited!

The Lord is my strength and my shield, my heart trust in Him, and I am helped. My heart leaps for joy and I will give thanks to Him in song. 
Psalm 28:7

Monday!
- It's all about sports! 
- Went for Zumba, then Netball
Zumba was fun as usual but I wonder why I got tired so fast *lack of sleep I guess*
Netball was even more interesting! Got to try different positions as GK and GS. Before that we had drills to warm up. As I was super excited I got a ball to my ring finger again. This time I knew what was going to happen because I experienced it before, so get the ice and pull it! The swell is not that bad after all but aching and still swell, can't bend.. 
 - next we went for groceries in ASDA
it's like Tesco, and my day became even more interesting when the cashier didn't have change for me and owed me 10pounds. Come to think of it, it's funny how you just close down the cashier and ignored your customer. Oh granny, I hope you all will return me my 10pounds tomorrow..
- dinner with dinner buddies!
random phone calls from a stranger in his flat *yada yada*
- super tired today! Finger & knee.. 
- shall sleeps..

More
- there's inter netball competition which I really want to join so badly but its on Sunday during church service, so I didn't. Maybe the next round when my finger is better or not on Sundays..

Sunday, October 21, 2012

Gummi Bears!

I should catch the sunset here sometime *when it's sunny*

Yesterday was kinda of a hard day to accept though its nothing big, not that I missed my final papers or like that *hopefully not* but I finally spent quite a good long quiet solitary time with God. Thank You once again. Words could not express how I felt.

Sunday
- I enjoyed today's service
it's all about sincerity in everything you do..
but sadly, not all have this in heart..
- Cepat habiskan journalism assignment!

Thoughts
It's good to see HELP CF-ers so united now, so closely knitted.
I'm happy to see them backing up one another but sad to say, I don't even get farewells before I leave. What to do right, when you're the one initiating everything people will just follow, and when you don't, nothing happens. BUT, now after I'm no longer in the committee, seeing people stepping up and grow makes me happy because they just know how to initiate things right now *I'm alright*

Okay! Back to my main topic!
During my childhood days I used to watch cartoons like Gummi bears, Thunder cats and Powers Rangers etc etc with my brother. After watching the video below, my goosebumps came! Funny how cartoons back then are more meaningful than the ones now..



Love the flute in the background if you realized *wink*

Saturday, October 20, 2012

What?!

Maddy was badly drunk yesterday, and Ben was with her, I'm quite worried for her, but Ben insisted that he can handle her, but you know if you know what I'm thinking, I wish I could help her..

Saturday
On this very day,
what a memorable day it shall be
other than expecting my posts and pictures entitled, "Yeah Stratford Upon Avon!"
you see nothing of it but disappointments
the story? nothing big, but for me it is.

What happened?
technology failure and I really jumped out of bed with my heart rate up
how? by the hard knocks on my window
it was Alex and I missed the trip obviously
I was really in a shocked mode
and this cannot be happening
I checked my phone but it wasn't working
find my watch and it says 10am
WHAT!! Went to the window and out to the door
and my heart just sank

It happened. It really did happened. And it's happening.

HOW?? How could this happen??
All my years being so independent *not boasting*
I've never missed such an event like this!
You may ask, "WHY am I taking this seriously?"
I tell you why, "because I worked so hard on finishing my web design earlier for this trip! That's why!" I felt so disapointed and the worst part of all is....

Getting others worried for you
Calling your phone for numerous times but failed *phone battery died*
People knocking on your window *the wrong one*
Searching for you
Worrying for you and yet
I was actually sleeping soundly in another world

I. Am. Truly. Deeply. Sorry.
So so very Sorry and I can't believe it myself.
And I thought that I was in a dream, but I wasn't. 

-ON THE OTHER SIDE OF IT-
Another friend knew what happened and offered me to follow her down to London. I said no. Guess this Saturday is just meant to be reserved for You and me. So let's catch up on things shall we *wink*

Friday, October 19, 2012

I will Run to You

18th Thursday 
- while I was so stressed up with web design, I enjoyed journalism class today..
though I know not much about UK politics but this subject is somehow interesting *tapi semasa buat assignment garu kepala la* okay okay, just gatto read and catch up on the news..
- in between my 3 hours break, went back to continue web design..
super stressed up until I don't know what to do, so I decided to listen to songs and look out from my window *if you don't know, my view outside is like a mini jungle* as I was admiring His creation, I spotted squirrels and a rabbit! *how God makes you happy with little things* guess what I did after that, I was stalking and paparazzi-ing them *surprisingly the squirrels felt someone was watching them*
- went for web design class
- then to Christian Union *another CF* see see la..
- if I'm not mistaken, his name is Matthew from America, a youth Pastor,
I liked what he shared today because it was relevant to the society in this era..
- I just finished the homepage for my web design *3 more pages to go!*

Question to reflect and ask myself:
- Are others attracted to you?
(not physically but for who you are) - Like Jesus!

19th Friday
- I FINALLY FINISHED THEM this early morning *5:30am*
- will do some last changes and I'm done! Hopefully..
- rainy day *good day to stay in*
- DONE with the changes!! *click to check it out*
- next journalism..
- enduring housemates mess in the kitchen and noise, especially when the weekend is approaching, they somehow used to be so considerate *guess their colors are already out after a month*
- well, its okay. I'll try to understand you *break the wall and bridge the gap*

Question:
If you were to know a person's darkest secret whether its their past or present, would you be judgmental and stay away or otherwise?

Wednesday, October 17, 2012

A Month!

"This world will not change until we truly become the change God wants to see." - author of Unstoppable, Nick Vujicic

 

16th Tuesday
Routine - classes, seminar, ASDA, dinner with Jerrica and Alex
Alex is a good cook, all we do is wait and eat *we do the dishes*
- trying out something new: Frisbee for the first time
I don't know how to throw this thing, especially aiming it, but I enjoy catching it!  So, while I was happily catching it, I realize that, you have to pass it then *whoops* 
- It's okay! Take your time *Sorry! I'm a newbie!*

17th Wednesday
- A month in UK!
 I will TRY to get a video done, if I can *hopefully* I've got lots of stuff to be done
- let's see, I think I should fast Facebook? But most of the news and updates are there *sigh* how how? Self discipline, don't open the page until your work is done! *try la*
- my routine changed because there's no roller blading tonight..
- my neighbor is playing computer games! *I can hear them*
remember that the walls here are thin, and Don't be tempted to play Jane!
- being an anti-social? *laughs* maybe, but God has been so good that He sent random people around, instead of me talking to them first, they talked to me first..
- I shall continue to trust and obey You
- I is not likings web design, I'm so bad at it! *help!* squeeze em brain juice!

Pay careful attention to your own work, for then you will get the satisfaction of a job well done, and you won’t need to compare yourself to anyone else. Galatians 6:4

Monday, October 15, 2012

Start of Something New!

A new week, a new day!! Make it worth it! with ZUMBA~

 and SMILES! 

- okay, my first time and it's fun! *body so stiff*
but hey, most importantly we had fun right! *love the sweat*
- I'm so excited that I wanted to try out every single sports *I could be too excited after submitting my assignment this early morning* and not forgetting another due this Saturday and coming Monday!
- guess Mondays will be my off days to sweat the stress off
- and it's banana day? My meals are just bananas *didn't do groceries yet*
- I'm excited and happy and hyper today!! *no one to laugh with*
- Netball! *finally train a little with ball handling*
over here, everyone wants to play that we take turns playing, but back in KL, we've got not enough players that some players would have to take two roles or we play half a court
*I still miss trainings in KL though* the sun! outdoor without worrying being cold except the rain..
- let's see, over here, I don't get called ah moi! *laughs*
- HELP CF-ers!! I'm missing you all! *crazy shaped family*
- Course mates! and Family!

Flashbacks
- I learn so much things, but I didn't master even one of them
- School play pictures gone, couldn't find them
- I miss being a girl guide and rangers too!
- God showed me the video of my life a few nights ago
we tend to see all our flaws, sufferings, problems and issues but one thing that we didn't realize is His love, grace and blessings that He had provided along the way. You've been very faithful Lord! Thank You! I Love You! Sweep Me Away In Your Love~

Sunday, October 14, 2012

Steady My Heart

"People see what you do, but God sees your purpose of doing it"

14th Sunday
- Sunday service and bible study
- on the mission to finish up my assignment *challenging*
- I tell you, my brain is so rusty! I can't think and talk intelligently, I can't remember what I've studied. This is a big issue here! You can say, what's so hard to write, just write la, and settle! I think too much until my brain burns *psychologically scared?*
- honestly I don't feel scared at all *weird* that I have to pressure myself to sit and not move until I finish up this assignment, and look where I am now *urgh*
- why is it so hard to click with my British housemates? *you're alright?*
- why this why that *maybe its good to just stay low profile*
- my mind wonders when I'm doing my assignment *focus!*
- or I should just go back to my assignment *I'm still at peace* FASTER!!
- Lord You have steady my heart *Thank You*

Random thought - I miss my furry friends!!
                            - I should do a video! *a month in UK!*

Recap: taking pictures of myself is a no no, I took so many pictures and most of them are failed attempts! Well, at least I finally got one! *relief* Happy Birthday Again Siew Yau! The effort eh! *wink*

Update on my assignment
- I finally submitted it!! *Hallelujah*
- now web design due on Saturday and another journalism due on Monday

Saturday, October 13, 2012

Beautiful

Here before Your alter I am letting go of all I've held of every motive,
every burden everything that's of myself..

12th Friday
- IT'S A BEAUTIFUL DAY!! *strums me imaginary guitar*
sings *Beautiful, beautiful I am lost for more to say
           Beautiful, Oh Lord You're beautiful to me*
- went Galeria with Ley Juan and finally bought a casual shoe
- looking through the posters was so tempting, but why do I need them?
- IELTS test was okay? *aptitude test -new word*
- CF International Day! Checkered clothes! *I hads fun!*
- questions questions *what if what if*
- START DOING YOUR ASSIGNMENT JANE!!! *due on Monday*
- spontaneously randomly did something for Siew Yau's birthday, I wonder where it came from

13th Saturday
- Archery was fun! *hit myself at the elbow again, new swell*
- cooked my last maggie mee with an egg
- started my assignment with a confused mind, I'm so lost!
now I'm wondering if I should take journalism next semester *maybe not*
- Must finish up the assignment by tonight!! *GO JANE*
but I don't understand what I'm doing?

Trust in the Lord with all your heart and lean not on your own understanding; 
in all your ways submit to him, and he will make your paths straight. 
Proverbs 3:5-6


Thursday, October 11, 2012

Cherish everyday!

10th Wednesday
- how many times I have to remind you! SMILE JANE!! It's alright!
- hello flat residence above me, you're so super noisy!! *relax Jane*
- what is this, am I losing myself? Guess I will just rant as much as I can here..
Cherish everyday and live each day to the fullest Jane!  
- getting the hang of roller skating *Don't give up Jane*
- is it just me or the screenings are cancelled or venue changed? 
- my night just became so happy! *im emotionally unstable*

11th Thursday
- Ley Juan's arrival *first visitor*
- Dream of Dreamweaver *past present future*
- enjoyed class today!
- ate kebab and it rained today
- stop procrastinating!!
- SMILE!

Therefore do not worry about tomorrow, for tomorrow will worry about itself. Each day has enough trouble of its own. Matthew 6:34

Monday, October 8, 2012

3rd week!

8th Monday
- oh so cozy morning to snuggle under my comforter because of the rain. Well you gatto wake up somehow, wonder how many times I snoozed my alarm *thankful that I have no classes on Mondays*
- Badminton then Netball *love the sweat*
- had a good conversation with Ream *one of the Cf-er*
- received an email that we all have to take an English test this Friday
- I'm feeling stressed out for no reason? Probably overwhelmed by the assignment tasks..
- "investigating" a friend's facebook timeline and blog to find out more about Hertfordshire? 

9th Tuesday
- Thoughts to be put onto words *why aren't you coming out?*
- class was good, especially the seminar session
- went Galleria
- chat with some friends back in Malaysia
- off to Aldi, Asda then Rice time *chinese roast duck rice!*
- read your text book Jane!!! Everything will be alright!

When have you felt as if you were sinking, only to find out you were really flying? Why do we feel safest when we believe we’re in control?

Sunday, October 7, 2012

I'll follow You

How do you react when faced with tough times? Do you allow what you perceive to be unfair to drive you to God, or do you push Him away? Why?

6th Saturday
- went for archery today! They actually have coaches for us.
I had fun! Always on target *in range* but only once near the bulls eye,
and when I thought it was fun, I came back with a bruise on my hand *it hurts*
you know when the string of the bow hits you? *swell*
as I was wondering why they would need our kin's detail, I don't have anyone here in UK, so I was curious and I Googled up on the injuries related to archery, I am speechless? Do go and check them out yourself, shall keep the suspense here *wink*
- is it a bad thing to be good? I don't care if I'm made fun of because of who I am.

Church hoping? For now, not for me..
- I know I'm placed here for a reason, especially in campus, my calling, what is my gift to be shared? We are placed in such a time as this in this campus to be the light and salt, to share His love. People need the LORD, they deserve to know the truth. Again: I will stay, use me Lord as Your vessel. And make a difference no matter where I am placed in. MAD COW forever! (making a difference, changing our world!)

7th Sunday
- woke up 5 minutes before church!
- pressured for badminton *lesson learned, don't go if you feel obliged to*
- watched Taken 2 and had Mcd *no spicy chicken mcdeluxe here*
- they walked me home *touched*
I used to be in their shoes, and I didn't expect them to do the same..

Why is it that people often ponder God when calamities take place? How can you reveal God’s loving presence to people who have faced great loss and pain?

Friday, October 5, 2012

One Thing

"For the mouth speaks what the heart is full of." 

 4th Thursday 
- and when I thought my skin has already gotten used to the weather,
my skin has gotten dryer now
- went for class
- came here to learn about US movies and UK politics?
Can anyone tell me more about UK politics?
- went to the bank alone to open internet banking
- stressed up with web design, computers didn't like me
so I was left behind trying on other computers, anybody knows Dreamweaver?
guess I have a rough topic of what I want to do..
- had dinner with Alex and Jerrica *dinner buddies*
Thank God for them or else I wont be eating?
- borrowed text books, more things to read up, buck up,
will be super busy catching up on things
- guess what, we have personal tutors,
I'm under Mimi Tessier *don't know who she is*
- I talked to myself a lot these days, in my mind of course,
I have dreams almost every night

5th Friday
- bought vitamin c for coughing housemates *do take and consume them please*
- other than that, a day for Him
- oh! ABC soup later then CF! Chouz!
Update on CF - games was fun! Each individuals in each groups collect as much points as they can and rewarded toothpicks as their money. With the toothpicks we bit on the auctioning in the mid and the end of the games with random things that the committee has provided. *I got a Nutella!!*
- borrowed the guitar from James! *Yeah!*

"How does Nehemiah exemplify what it means to be salt and light in the world?
Which of his qualities do you need to work on? What will you do to begin pursuing positive change in your life?"

Heavenly Father, give us eyes to see through Satan’s false offers of life that will take us away from the true life that is found only in Your Son Jesus.

Thursday, October 4, 2012

Time Out

I read this joke a month ago from a friend's status *laughs*

On the best male and female financiers in the bible:

1. Who was the greatest male financier in the Bible?
ANS: Noah. He was floating his stock while everyone else was in liquidation.

2. Who was the greatest female financier in the Bible?
ANS: Pharaoh's daughter. She went down to the Nile and drew out a little prophet.


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Who owned the best motorcycle in the Bible? 
David. His Triumph could be heard across the land.

Who was the straightest man in the Bible? 
Joseph, cause Pharaoh made a ruler out of him.

Who is the fastest man in the bible? 
Adam cause he is the first in the human race.  

Wednesday, October 3, 2012

Hush Hush

2nd Tuesday
- first day of lecture and seminar *MCCM* aka marketing communication
- watched 'Thank you for smoking' in our seminar, how pr does their job
- just realized I have classes every morning at 9am *yeah!* more time in the day?
- did laundry, like the warmy feel after the dryer..
- went kebab for dinner had fun with some of the CF-ers
this reminded me of project Snowflake back in KL *those were the days where we invite new members out to get to know them better* or scouting maybe? 

3rd Wednesday
- 9am class, went for US Cinema: Studio System to Digital Era
- interesting subject, already had an assignment
- went for a "induction" then screening but it was cancelled without notice *so I was a little bit paranoid, cause if I've known earlier, I get to go for netball in the noon* wasted my time waiting* what's with you Jane, caught the netball bug? I actually miss netball training..
- got back home still paranoid but I felt better after listening to Irene by TobyMac.
took a nap, watched the screening online instead - 'Rebel Without A Cause'
- went roller skating for the first time! With the rain! It was fun!
oh yea I fell once and I've got no injuries *wink* still learning how to balance..
took hot shower! Back in Malaysia I've never took hot showers often but here, privilege?
- came back, Ben *my housemate* gave me his unwanted chocolate flavors *happy!* You know I love chocolates, and when you're away you won't purposely get yourself chocolates to eat *grins*


Monday, October 1, 2012

This is it!

The Official week starts now! *bring it on!*

Sometimes God doesn't change your situation,
                              because He is trying to change your heart?

- I shall appreciate and do my best with the months I have here in the UK!
- I shall not complain though things aren't easy, because I should be grateful that I have the opportunity to be here and to finish up my degree.
*So no more complains Jane!*
- I shall post out pictures that made my day/means to me/represent my thoughts or feelings/inspired me for the day and the list goes on *gatto set reminders*

Netball
- went for the student active sports for Netball *I had fun!*
- finally get to sweat again, helped those who were first timers
- the coach was there to referee, guess they expect everyone to know the basics
- just too bad that I couldn't go for the next one on Wednesday because of classes
- went for tryouts just for the fun of it, and as expected I'm not in *so harm trying?*

So today my days are more about Netball, looking for the venues of my classes and watching Jane by design. If I'm not mistaken I've finished the first season and I can't wait for the next season! Random thought - being here is like starting all over again right at the beginning of a University student. And the funniest thing is that right here, it is like an opposite life in HELP? Guess it's too early to judge. I felt more like an ordinary person here, not to say that its bad but I did mention before that I wouldn't want to get myself too involved into something *is it really happening?* Besides, I'm only here for two weeks now..

Sunday, September 30, 2012

Discerning

HAPPY MID AUTUMN FESTIVAL!!
any moon cakes to spare? *grins*

- went to prayer at 9am this morning
- my first service in UK, Hatfield was great!
though its a lil bit different but I'm glad I came
- free lunch *cup noodles* better than nothing right *wink*
- bible study on the parable
- nap for 30 minutes
- badminton with the CF *exercise!*
- dinner cooked maggie + eggs + enoki + ham
- sorting out my timetable *packed except Mondays*
- assignments are all out! I don't know how I'm going to do this but I know with God all things are possible! Gonna do my best for Him! Colossians 3:23-24

Conclusion
- I somehow see the answers to my questions. Tomorrow I will be officially here for two weeks. Looking forward to the days ahead, still unknown, blurry and unsure. What to expect and what not to? Lord, I pray that you'll bless me with good, responsible and hardworking group members Lord. I uphold my family and pets back home in Malaysia, I pray that you'll keep them safe with Your protection  and bless them with all their needs. In Jesus name I pray, Amen.

Saturday, September 29, 2012

The map and I

Cambridge with the map was great!
Who knew traveling alone with a map was that interesting and you learn to be fully dependent on your own. *getting lost at your own risk*
- ate fish and chips for lunch with vinegar and salt *cheefoo I tried*

Ang mohs saying:
- hello Jane!
- you're alright?
- how are you?
- would you like a shot?

- dinner was good *the 3 of us cooked*
- did I tell you that everything here is online!
Assignments are already posted up even before classes started *stressed*
- have to register for another subject due to the limited uptake?

Friday, September 28, 2012

An Otter

28th Friday
I have always looked forward to Fridays because of CF. Not forgetting Sundays as well! and finally!!
- my first day in CF feels like home! Love it! As usual there is this particular weird one *laughs* just love the homey closey knitted family from the same family of God. We did a personality test and I'm an otter! Most of it are true, not all *Weakness: high energy can manipulate others* true?
- came back with an unexpected vomit on the carpet
its ball night for freshers, everyone are all dressed up and drunk even before the ball started..
As I have mentioned before, I have considerate housemates, they said sorry and explained everything, and the vomit was from one of their drunken friend. But I'm okay with it if you say sorry *the magic word* that's one of the reason why I love my housemates.. 

- about afternoon, freshers' fair
- 6pence richer
- had good lunch at Galeria a shopping mall,
a movie ticket is 7pounds here *mahal eh*
- bought gloves
- had a good walk, company to and fro..
- you don't realize that you're dehydrated here,
so just drink as much water as you can
- getting used to the paip water and the coins
- you have to keep putting on moisturizer to keep moisturize
- looking forward to Monday, feeling anxious
- I'm happy to see HELP CF growing and being so united after the camp
check out their video! *CUTE PUPPIES*



and I would like to conclude my day with this song;

I love this family of God
So closely knitted into one
They've taken me into their hearts
And I'm so glad to be a part
Of this great family.

Thursday, September 27, 2012

Conserved

27th Thursday 
- being more conserved and shy?
- I have considerate housemates, they love drinking and hanging out at the club
I think hanging out at a mamak shop is the BEST! *too bad there isn't one here*
- what are you trying to show me Lord?
why do I always have to be the one encouraging and influencing people?
I need someone better than me Lord! *but it's okay*
- I finally enrolled my subjects *they all don't seem easy*
- participated in the World Guinness Records for the longest handshake chain 
- kill my time by watching Jane by Design *interesting story line*
- I think I will participate in the student active events to meet more people
- can't wait for CF tomorrow
- Thank You Lord for today! Thank You for protecting me!
*nearly slipped and fall on a slippery staircase and surprisingly I managed to balance myself, Thank You angels!* Really cannot afford to get injured here..

 and.. I found this interesting video!


Wednesday, September 26, 2012

Psalm 139

The beats of Oppa Gangnam style above my flat on replay non-stop *faints* 2 nights

25th Tuesday
- went to get a bank account, gatto wait for another week
- bought stamps for 87pence each *super mahal eh*
- lots of walking today *beautiful weather*
- got to know my housemates better,
other than chips, they love pastas, love seeing them so united and friendly..
Becky is going to be a kinder garden teacher, James offered his guitar and told me that I can get from him anytime I want *that's cool!* I think he's the youngest in our house, funny guy, and he says that he's going to get homesick next week *there there* Ben was super tired after classes today and Maddy has a skeleton in her room! *cool! it has socks on as well* and apparently the moose in her room was a gift from her parents *a tradition to those who leave their home for studies*
- the 2 huge luggage was finally claimed!! *more space to stretch*
- I failed making my poor man's food? *will try again*
- have you seen a frozen egg before? *laughs*
- don't you just love free food?

The cold breezy air blowing against my face *chilly*

The weird smell in the kitchen *beer? spoiled food?*

Feeling secure when my housemates are home at night *noise, alive*
(don't mind them being away in the afternoon)

26th Wednesday
- saw a few pence on the floor, wanted to pick it up *desperate*
for them its nothing like 10cents in Malaysia..
- went to see the sports club *interesting, but you have to pay to join*
should I should I? I'll just go for tryouts for fun..
- ate wasabi without realizing *gosh how it goes through your nose! its in the mustard!*
- tried the poor man's food *it is okay but not preferable on a daily basis*
- skyped with mummy! They've got lots of moon cakes! *send them over anyone!*
- is going to the forum (club) is the only way to mix around and meet new friends? Or drinking?
- someone knocked on my window again

Most quoted!
- Look! Free food!
- Super cold!
- The sun is up!

Tuesday, September 25, 2012

A Week!

Unclaimed bag?
- I'm still keeping a stranger's luggage up till today! *two huge ones*
(the guy I met in the airport's bus station)

23rd Sunday
- London trip *rainy day, super cold*
after awhile your body adapts to it *got the oyster card*
- we went to China town and got Maggie mee! *my dinner*

- I've got a physiotherapist in ma house yo!
so as predicted, 2 other girls, named Maddy and Becky if I'm right
- The kitchen cupboards are already filled with their foods and utensils
I should have booked one of the cupboards earlier, maybe that's the reason why international students come a week earlier? Oh! by looking at their rooms, they practically brought their whole house in! *I didn't peek but I went to say Hi and saw, a moose head?*
- Ben is 19 doing engineering and James is 18 composer *musician in the house yo, tempted to borrow his guitar* gosh I'm old!
- Becky is 21 forgot what she's doing, Maddy is the physiotherapist! *not sure about her age*

24th Monday
- Officially a week here
- rainy day, 13°C
- 4 pence richer
- personal stuff day?  *ta!*

YOU CAN
- remember that its lunch time for us in UK when you're having dinner in Malaysia
- ask for my address if you want to send me anything
- NOT, shall not post pictures to tempt me! *chilli pan mee*
- Skype with me? *we gatto plan*

Monday, September 24, 2012

Poor man's food

Baked sweet potato

There are a couple of methods you can use when oven baking. Both require a temperature of 450 degrees Fahrenheit and about 30 to 45 minutes in the oven, depending on the size of the potato. For the simplest -- and healthiest -- simply scrub the potatoes clean and put them directly in the oven on the middle rack. The skin will develop a delicious light crunch as the sweet potato cooks.
If you want to treat yourself, coat the veggie in a bit of butter and sprinkle cinnamon and sugar over it. Then, wrap the potato in foil to hold in the juices and soften the skin. Once cooked, cut it open and add whatever seasonings you prefer. Salt and paprika are good balances to the sweet exterior.

Sunday, September 23, 2012

After 5 days

20th Thursday
- Induction, mom left, no more company
- cute cops *really*
- tour around de Havilland
- went to Aldi *groceries*
- Film night, Cabin in the woods & The Help

21st Friday
- last induction
- information fair *Barclays or Llyods?* undecided!
- played badminton
- saw the netball team board, all super tall and at the first glance I thought they were cheerleaders *as in the way they pose in their photo shoot*
- disco night, didn't realize that it was my first time in a club? I don't think I belong there, seeing how people get drunk and wasted, left early

22nd Saturday
- morning started with a grumpy old bus driver
*he was in a bad mood I guess, first time seeing an angry rude ang moh*
- went to St Albans
- nice town, went to see the Cathedral church *didn't get to go inside*
- nice park, bought a thicker jacket for 15pounds
- ate chips for lunch 1.5pounds *expensive*
- went bbq for free food *its not what you think it is*
we have to queue up for so long just to get a beef burger/hot dog
- went to Aldi *groceries*
- came back with super loud noises/screams *ang mohs are here*
- two of my new housemates greeted me *James and Ben*
that makes the four of us including Rozalin, I wonder if the other 2 are girls?

London Trip tomorrow!

Found out:
- Fellowship is on every Fridays (7pm)
- Church service on Sunday (10am) *in campus*
- there are other CF as well, will pay each one a visit..

Thoughts:
- not easy to make friends here
- its good that I don't look like my age *wink*
- I don't want to grow horizontally
- I FINALLY HAVE MY OWN ROOM!
- love my quiet time
- still unsure which bank to open an account with *help!*

Friday, September 21, 2012

Forward

You know you're made for more
So don't be afraid to move
Your faith is all
It takes and you can
Walk on the water too

Thursday, September 20, 2012

So far so good?

18th Tuesday
- reached Heathrow airport
- took a bus to Herforshire
- Thank God for a student who was on his way there as well
- Thank God for friends who helped us with my super heavy luggage & places to go
- got everything done (register, accommodation key, fees etc)
- went for freshies game night

19th Wednesday
- induction
- campus is really huge! lots of walking *me like*
- registered for medical services
- learning more things about Herfordshire
- went to Tesco extra
- no stray dogs and cats so far but!
- there are many hares around! *shall hunt them down if im desperate* neh..
- OH OH!! I saw a porcupine just now!! SO CUTE!!
- went for freshies Barn Night (super fun!) *get to dance after for so long*
- finally get to sweat in UK, met lots of people and
- getting use to the environment and the life here?

Thoughts
- do i really have to conform and speak their accent?
- when can I join CF!! WHERE ARE YOU???!
- sports!
- CHURCH!
- missing friends over in Malaysia..

Thursday, September 13, 2012

Confirm confirmed?

Hello,
If you're reading this Thank you! And if you're not Thank you!

I'm SO Super Sorry if if didn't tell you, I just felt that I don't have to? Time will pass and I will eventually be back in Malaysia if I'm still alive *wink*

So if you would like to see me or offer me free hugs/prayer/kisses/gifts/help/whacks before I go:

THE DAY is on the 17th September 2012.
I will leave from Ipoh by YOYO bus, at 11am - fellow Ipohians that I didn't get to meet/see can meet/see me there or watch me leave, or follow me over *bus tickets not sponsored*

KLIA - will reach around 3pm *we can still catch up on things if you're free*
Flight departing at: 1930

psstt.. I heard that on the 17th is a public holiday, yes?
So.. All the more you should be there! *grins*

Thank you!

Bye!

Wednesday, September 12, 2012

Missed?

They say, distance makes the heart grow fonder. True?

Daddy: *comes home with a BIG smile on his face*
Wah, going UK soon ah *he gave me a kiss, felt a lil bit kekok*
Go UK must travel before you come back *I wonder how many times people have to tell me this* must take care, don't let people cheat you, etc etc etc etc..

Thoughts:
I've got only a few days left *sounded like I'm dying, no I'm not* and I can see that.. Wait, yes I should wait.. I'll definitely miss people, yea humans, my dogs and hamsters too. And NO! Those who have asked me if I would forget them when I'm away, I won't! But, will you?

Me: Mama, can I bring me guitar along?

Mom: No need la, so ma fan..

Me: But why??????? I will be so lonely in the room..

Mom: No need la, you go out play games and join clubs la..

Me: But I wanttttttt..

Monday, September 10, 2012

Best of me

If I could find yesterday
I would take You back to where I'm coming from
Cause You can see the way
All these scars have kept me running
And chasing down the past
But I'm not done, I'm turning back

I swear, You're the only reason I keep breathing
I swear, You keep on giving me the reason to keep believing

Finally I'm worth it, though I'm not perfect
It still feels right, and I keep on giving
Trying to make a difference, in my life
But I know another way to show
Everything I can be for You
You're all that I'll ever need
I'll give you the Best of Me

If I could read tomorrow's mind
I would know exactly where You're taking me
If I'm going to slip away
Or if I stay and give You all my trust
You will keep me safe
I know You won't let me fade

Oh, I know I believe it
No, I will be turning around
I want to know You now
Your Love won't let me down, no!

Finally I'm worth it, though I'm not perfect
It still feels right, and I keep on giving
Trying to make a difference, in my life
But I know another way to show
Everything I can be for You
You're all that I'll ever need

I'll give You the Best of Me!
I swear, You're the only reason I keep breathing
I swear...

Sunday, September 9, 2012

Kitty Song

Song currently replaying in my mind.. 


Oh! HAPPY BIRTHDAY MAMA!! *Grins*



Side Note: Congrats HELP netball team in getting third place for MAPCU!! 
*miss netball trainings*

Saturday, September 8, 2012

Situation

When I save, I'll tend to use my savings for the unexpected injuries I get. But if I don't something else would have to take place and I ended up using them again.. The circle of life?

Friday, September 7, 2012

Surgery

May's surgery went well though halfway through there were complications, but I really Thank God that His hands were there to guide the surgeon. I really do feel His presents throughout the surgery. And right after the surgery was completed, the electricity went off. Thank You Lord that it didn't break out during the surgery. Super Relief! THANK YOU LORD!! Do pray for her speedy recovery.

*there were moments where I just feel like bursting, managed to hold them back*

I'll continue to trust in You Lord.
You are in control.

Thursday, September 6, 2012

Excited?

Dad: So are you excited? Leaving to UK soon oh!
Me: No.... *more of feeling scared* (in my mind)
Dad: Why? *not concentrating after that*


Tuesday, September 4, 2012

Monday, August 20, 2012

Wednesday, August 8, 2012

The Road

"Since God intends to make you like Jesus, He will take you through the same experiences Jesus went through. That includes loneliness, temptation, stress, criticism, rejection, and many other problems. The Bible says Jesus ‘learned obedience through suffering’, and ‘was made perfect through suffering.’ Why would God exempt us from what He allowed His own son to experience? Paul said, ‘We go through exactly what Christ goes through. If we go through the hard times with him, then we’re certainly going to go through the good times with him!’"
— Rick Warren

Thursday, July 26, 2012

The Fight

'As you live the Christian life, you may have periods of darkness or of doubt. You may encounter painful struggle and discouragement. But there will also be moments of exultation and glory. And most important of all, you will become free.'

Sunday, July 15, 2012

Hope

A life without Christ is a hopeless end,
A life with Christ is an endless hope.

Saturday, July 14, 2012

Wednesday, July 11, 2012

Free!!

I am finally FREE!! *not use to it*
Finished my finals and handover was done,
so what am I supposed to do right now? *day dream*

And so the to do list starts!
One of it will be this when I'm back home! Can't wait!

Wednesday, June 20, 2012

Call me maybe?

Hey I just met you,
this is normal,
so here's my number, so call me anytime!



Proverbs 17:17
A friend loves you all the time. A brother is always there to help you.

Monday, June 18, 2012

SPCA

There are some things you can't teach your pets.



In case if you were wondering what SPCA means:
SPCA is an acronym for Society for the Prevention of Cruelty to Animals.

But if you have been to SPCA yourself, or have not, its a sad place to be in. All dogs and cats ranged from all breeds and ages can be found. All thanks to their irresponsible owner.

Friday, June 15, 2012

Really?

How others see you is not important.
How you see yourself means everything?

Answer:
What do you think?

Thursday, June 14, 2012

Heart Stuff

CF CAMP IS COMING SOON!
Book your calender and keep yourself free!


A Camp that you will never forget!

Wednesday, June 13, 2012

Play Dead

I bet most of you have seen dogs playing dead,
but have you seen a Hamster doing it instead? WATCH!



SO CUTE RIGHT!!
*gatto train Hammie now*

Tuesday, June 12, 2012

Compilling

I don't even know why I volunteered to compile, but even if i don't, it will eventually be me as well. So no point waiting and passing the ball around until someone owns it right.

Sigh, stress betul. Even though it is short semester, it make things even hectic-er and harder. What's the point of having short semesters to cramp up things in 7 weeks? I can tell you that I can hardly remember what I studied *eh, I do remember some important ones, better than nothing*

I feel so burdened that I prefer going out than staring and doing my assignments *not a good example to be followed and no, I do still sit and stare at my assignments* Help Me!

And a Random picture which is SO TRUE..


Yes! We don't like to be called Ah Moi!


Monday, June 11, 2012

LES MISERABLES

Another movie that I look forward to! A Musical Show!

Release Date: December 14, 2012
Genre: Musical Epic
Starring: Hugh Jackman, Russell Crowe, Amanda Seyfried, Anne Hathaway
Director: Tom Hooper
Screenwriter: William Nicholson, Alain Boublil, Claude-Michel Schönberg
Studio: Universal Pictures



Set against the backdrop of 19th-century France, "Les Misérables" tells an enthralling story of broken dreams and unrequited love, passion, sacrifice and redemption--a timeless testament to the survival of the human spirit. Jackman plays ex-prisoner Jean Valjean, hunted for decades by the ruthless policeman Javert (Crowe) after he breaks parole. When Valjean agrees to care for factory worker Fantine's (Hathaway) young daughter, Cosette, their lives change forever.

Friday, June 8, 2012

True BEAUTY

You are BEAUTIFUL no matter what they say..
Yes, you are BEAUTIFUL in every single way..
Cuz words CAN'T bring you down..


*just imagine their children asking whether they are adopted because they don't look like their parents*

You don't need anything that makes you BEAUTIFUL, because You're beautiful, it's true..
Not because the way you flip your hair gets them overwhelmed,
but because you're BEAUTIFUL just the way you are..
Hence, Don't need make up to cover up,
Being the way that you are is enough..

Reason why I'm writing this
- most teenagers from Korea are doing plastic/cosmetic surgery just because they think they are ugly and most of them has their own definition/ideal face of being beautiful.
eg: big eyes, double eyelid, small face, white smooth skin, sharp nose.
- to them surgery is like a norm, going under a knife for double eyelid surgery no longer considered as a surgery because they do it almost everyday and its normal.
- boys will not like them if they don't do surgery (forever alone).
- they are considered ugly and abnormal if they don't do surgery.

Watch this documentary for more information.


Charm is deceptive, and beauty does not last; but a woman who fears the Lord will be greatly praised. Proverbs 31:30

In conclusion,
Let's pursue true beauty, God and His glory radiating from within us.

You don't know you're beautiful, Oh oh, That's what makes you beautiful..

Wednesday, June 6, 2012