This Is A Story Of A Girl Who Cried A River And Drowned The Whole World!

Friday, December 28, 2012

Only One

Follow the star to a place unexpected
Would you believe, after all we've projected,
A child in a manger?
Lowly and small, the weakest of all
Unlikeliest hero, wrapped in his mother's shawl
Just a child - Is this who we've waited for? 'cause..

How many kings step down from their thrones?
How many lords have abandoned their homes?
How many greats have become the least for me?
And how many gods have poured out their hearts
To romance a world that is torn all apart
How many fathers gave up their sons for me?

Bringing our gifts for the newborn Savior
All that we have, whether costly or meek
Because we believe.
Gold for his honor, and frankincense for his pleasure
And myrrh for the cross he will suffer
Do you believe?
Is this who we've waited for?

Thursday, December 27, 2012


Christmas isn't Christmas till it happens in your heart.

This hat actually kept me head warm.

Christmas Eve
- We had Christmas Eve dinner in church! Saboteur all the way! And everyone kept asking me how was my white Christmas, sadly it isn't snowing here. After the dinner we head over to Ream's place and got home at 4something in the morning.Well, at least we did something different after counting down. 

No White Christmas
- While everyone was telling and asking how was their Christmas and hope you enjoy your Christmas/White Christmas, it's actually quite sad over here. No place to go because most shops are closed. So the only place to go was to Hilary's place. While she was at work, Christine and I decorated her door with sticky notes (random idea that just came up).
- hope she likes it *smiles*
- Then we went over to Power House for fellowship, played CSI. I tell you, it was fun in the beginning, but during the ending part - your brain can literally burst I tell you, maybe it's just me, low in IQ - but at least I guessed the right culprit in the end! *whee* We went home at around 5am, I enjoyed listening to the birds chirping, admiring the bright moon and stars - all these no matter how well you try to capture it in a camera, it still can't be compared with our very own eyes. Things that can't be captured but to be admired.

Wednesday 26th
- A very well spent half day with Hannah - company and dinner.


You don’t get huge victories without huge battles.

- Will you be surprised if I told you this was my very first caroling? I was very excited about it and during the second day of caroling, I get the opportunity to play the guitar, with a senior of course. Honestly, when I came over, I really thought that I won't get the chance to serve again. But now I really Thank God for the opportunity He had given me.

Christmas Carol Concert
- Everything went smoothly, Thank God! I joined the choir group, and we sang 2 carol songs. Boy, I can tell you that I miss the practices that we normally have on every Mondays. After the event, we went to McD for supper. While everyone or most was enjoying their food and fellowship, I was having a great time catching up Christine (old school mate) we talked non-stop.

Pre Camp
- I stayed over at Caryn's place aka Power House for Praise and Worship practice. Again, really Thank God for the opportunity to serve in one of the session. I am super rusty. Also, the weather here enhance the perspiration of my palms. Imagine playing halfway, it became so slippery. Then the night ended with a good pillow talk with Sue Jan (Yeap, you read it right, just without an 'e').

Church Camp! 
- I think I only had 2 hours of sleep the night before, but it didn't stopped me from being super excited and hyper in the bus. I can really tell you that I enjoyed catching up with Christine throughout the journey. But the worst part has yet to come, my battery was running low when we were about to reach. All in all, in most camps you won't get enough sleep and you don't mind staying up chatting and playing Saboteur. So on the first night and first Praise & Worship session, I had fun but I made some mistakes (reminder: I'm doing it for God). Also, throughout the camp I was reminded of the very first time I stepped into HOPE fellowship and how I came to know about this family (I love this family of God) I really do.

Post Camp
- I fell sick on the 3rd month I was here. Down with fever, flu and sore throat. And the most stressing part wasn't the sickness but the assignment due at 4pm! Surprisingly, I was filled with peace and my progress was fast, then later I received a messaged saying that I will have to put my work on hold for awhile (puzzled) I hear people calling out at my window to open the door (let me tell you, I really didn't expect people to come all the way to pray for me, cooked porridge for me and made honey lemon for me) Thank You Daddy God for all my brothers and sisters in Christ!

Wednesday 19th
- I missed bible study because I was still sick. And the most interesting thing that happened was hearing weird sounds. Not what you think but the sound of pleasurable love. Really can't believe I was listening to it, and Ben is only 19 this year (my flatmate staying beside me). Anyway, I was more touched that I got porridge from Caryn and Bridget, not forgetting the deliverers - Hannah and Ariel was soak in rain (awwh).

Thursday 20th
- Alex gave me his leftover eggs and lend me his hard disk so I won't get bored over the holidays. But those weird sounds are getting on my nerves (yes, again and again and again) distracting my work.

Winter Wonderland
- So I only had 2 hours of sleep, gatto finish up my assignment before leaving to Winter Wonderland in London. During my 'break time' I decided to check Facebook and the first news I saw was regarding Hammie - He past away. Initially I didn't believe, but after a few minutes pictures were up and I couldn't stand but to mourn (I know it's just a Hamster but it has a special place in my heart) Being so depressed, I later received an email regarding the result of a group coursework with only 62% 'sigh' and my day became even worst when I read the feedback from the lecturer that we didn't submit our slides and I was the one in charged to submit (I did submit but apparently we must submit together with the report, not separately - it was settled in the end) One after another, I'm glad it was all over, we went to Winter Wonderland and I only get to sit a ride (a ride that I get to scream my hearts out) Yea, I feel so much better after that. Come to think of it, I really Thank God for caring people like Caryn. After much excitement we went back to Hatfield and watch White Chicks together at Power House.

Saturday 22nd
- I stayed over at Hilary's place the night before after White Chicks. Woke up late and had late lunch cooked by Christine! 

Sunday 23rd
- Sunday service at St John, normally it's in campus. Later in the evening we celebrated Jessie's birthday. And let me just tell you that random stuff can just happen and we decided to watch Life of Pi after that. From this day onwards my sleeping time is like an owl. 

Fun Fact
- If you have realized, in a fellowship like HELP CF, HOPE and etc etc we prolong our goodbyes every single time. We can say up to a 100 byes and hugs but still feel reluctant to leave. Now you can understand why Moses took 40 years to lead the Israelites to the Promise Land (just saying).

Sunday, December 9, 2012


God wants you. He delights in you. You don’t have to be like everybody else.

The Stroll
Strolling around campus admiring God's creation,
the nature, environment, clouds blown by the wind,
houses build by God's gift given to man - brains,
also things that cannot be seen - the wind,
blushing through my face,
the cold icy feeling that gives you chills off and on *shivers*

As I wonder and question myself again and again,
the answers will soon be unfold one day,
like a puzzle being fitted into its form,
and until that day,
I shall see the whole picture frame of Your plan You have for me.

God’s heart is to do you good. He wants you to come out with more at the end of the day than you started the day with. The enemy of your soul wants you to come out with less. 

Thursday, December 6, 2012


Do you know:
Every person you lay eyes on throughout your entire life is someone God died for? Someone who is tremendously precious to our God. 
This very phrase made me reconsider why we are called to love our neighbors as ourselves – including the ones we may not like..

Wednesday, December 5, 2012

Influencing? How?

Influencing and changing people around us - family, friends, co-workers and fellow believers is a direct part of our calling in Christ. So what are the keys to that influence?

(1) A spiritual perspective that believes invisible powers like prayer and love affects our world more than anything we can do naturally;

(2) A determination to model in our own life the very behaviors and priorities we want to see develop in others. What we do has more weight than what we say;

(3) A long-term approach that doesn't insist on immediate change in others, but recognizes that it took a long time for people to become the way they are, and it will take awhile for them to become different;

(4) Lots and lots of love for who they really are (and what they can become) - as opposed to lots and lots of judgment/criticism for what's wrong with them;

(5) And lastly, remembering to live by the two practical truths Jesus shared with us: 
a) act toward others as you'd like to be treated, and 
b) the speck you see in their life simply alerts you to the big board in your own.

P/S: IT SNOWED TODAY!!! Literally glide/slide on the snow *so slippery*

Tuesday, December 4, 2012


One good point of having your own room,
you get to dance your heart out without worrying anyone looking at you! *well, except one of course, the one that you can't hide anything from* Bet He's dancing with me as well! Woohooo~! What a good way to turn your frown upside down!

If He goes to the left then we'll go to the left
And if He goes to the right then we'll go to the right
We're going to jump jump jump jump in the river
Jump jump jump jump, everybody!

If He goes to the left then we'll go to the left
And if He goes to the right then we'll go to the right
We're going to dance dance, dance dance in the river
Dance dance, dance dance, everybody!


I think I did badly, I wonder why I was so nervous and anxious..
Anyway, Daddy God I surrender all to You!

Another one tomorrow!

Monday, December 3, 2012

Don't know

Right here right now,
pondering to myself, "Why aren't you scared?"
I feel so stressed because I don't feel stress at all!
Is it a good thing or a bad thing?
I have a presentation tomorrow, but I haven't even started doing my slides..
Such disappointment.. 
Jane ah Jane..
I miss expressing myself through words..
Sometimes I don't even know the answers to my own questions..
Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing..
Sometimes I don't know if I could trust people..
and sometimes I just don't know what to say..
or what I'm doing and what I just said..

-7 more months till the end of degree-

*don't know if i should be happy about it or otherwise*

Well, on the bright side!
- I enjoyed my very first caroling!
- looking forward to this coming Saturday as well

Saturday, December 1, 2012

Hello December!

Time is of the essence! And December is already here!

Hello Mummy!
I only know my mom reads my blog *wink*
Sorry for not updating for awhile, let me share some highlights..

So Surreal!
Last Monday on the 26th November, Caryn Ng messaged to asked for my mom's name. I felt a lil bit weird, why would someone suddenly got so interested about my mom's name. Then, only to found out that our moms were actually schoolmates! My mom was contacting her mom all the while to find out more about Hatfield and the UK! The worst part was that my mom wanted to give me Caryn's number just in case I got lost or needed help, and to my stubbornness of not wanting to trouble anyone, I said no. So all the while thinking of who that person was and the possibilities of meeting up would be impossible, I somehow forget about it. And well well, little to my surprise! HOPE brought us together! This totally made my day! The funny thing was that we both contacted each other through Facebook from Christine. WOW moment for me!

Friendliest Cat!
On the 29th, when I was walking back from practice, I saw this fat fluffy black and white cat sitting beside the pathway. As the normal usual me, I started calling the cat and to my surprise, the cat responded! It was the friendliest and manja-est cat I've ever met in UK so far! The rest are just pure scary cats..

Also, in the morning my web design lecturer gave out our marks for our second assignment. I got 63. Well, dropped 5% if compared to the first assignment. Needless to say, but to Thank God for it! I actually never expected to have more than 60 but less than that. And to my surprise as well, lecturer told me that the web looked professional *whoa* except for the animated Flash of course *Click to see*

Cooperative Flatmates!
Remember me complaining about them at one point? Well, I really Thank God for showing me the other side of them as well. It was on the 30th Friday. The English group of the college lane Fellowship was in charged to prepare dinner, so they decided to cook over at my place. So what I did to inform my flatmates was through a written note pasted on the kitchen door. Honestly, I wasn't expecting anything from them but to stay out from the kitchen from 4pm-7pm. And you know what, they cleaned and tidied up the kitchen for us! I was so shocked and touched! Really Thank God for them. After that night, I had a really good catch up with James an Maddie.

Last but not least!

On the first of December, I attended church jamming session and prayer meeting as well. I've never felt so much joy in serving Him before. Not that I hadn't had before, I had it but I can't remember when and I lost the feeling of it after not serving for sometime when I first came here. I played the guitar, then the drums! *whoa* Never knew I could because I've never played the drum in services before even though I've picked up drumming. Prayer meeting was a reminder that He is always with me no matter where I am and what I'm doing, like even now when I'm typing this, He is just right beside me, watching over me.

All in all, THANK YOU LORD!
Can't wait for caroling! We're starting tomorrow! *excited*

You have allowed me to suffer much hardship, but you will restore me to life again and lift me up from the depths of the earth. Psalm 71:20