This Is A Story Of A Girl Who Cried A River And Drowned The Whole World!

Friday, February 22, 2013


the are never satisfied or content with what they have,
and always wanting more than what they could have..
Greedy I would say, or pride? Ego? Show off?

But somehow it is good to see how God use us in this kind of situation to remind us once again of our very own attitudes. It is never easy consoling somebody when you yourself are facing the very same situation. Oh well, but I'm glad that it work.

Updates on fasting.
- after checking Facebook and Twitter just now,
I realized that there is nothing much but to read up on my family's group wall to catch up on things. But at the same time I somehow felt left out *not regretting*
- still struggle sometimes and tempted to press the FB button
- more time to think and reflect

On a side note
- it was snowing today! *excited*
but I don't think it will stay..
- double chin ah!!!

Happy Thinking's Day!

Wednesday, February 20, 2013

In the Mind

Yesterday was a good day!
We celebrated Bridget's Birthday with a Bang! *she's surprised!*

On the other side,
I was really relief that I did all my research and readings on Monday. Really Thank God! At the same time, I think it wasn't enough even though I understood most of the things said today. Buck up Jane!

I really don't like the fact that I keep arguing and reasoning myself *most of the time* especially when I'm stressed, occupied or down. I think it all started with one issue or a problem that leads to another, which gets bigger and bigger. Though I don't think it's much of an issue, the topic is just brought up just for the fact that I wasn't really satisfied with it.

That is when the dominance side of me fights against the steadiness in me.
I get so dominant that I want this this this and that, but the steadiness side of me will console myself that it is okay and I shouldn't be and feel that way. Talking of self empathy. So I'll just assume most of this are just words without thoughts. Just so you know that I do think a lot and struggle myself going against myself.

On the bright side!
I finally experienced the thick fog on Monday morning around 3:43am when I was on my way home from the LRC. It was so thick that I thought I was blind. You really can't see the things ahead of you. Quite interesting I must say!

Monday, February 18, 2013


It's a Sunny Day!
Monday used to be the usual sweat day for me, but not today. I finally repaid my sleep debts! *I think* but menstrual pain isn't helping much.

Well! But I Thank God for a well rested day!
So I spent the rest of my day in LRC *library* reading articles and researching *good place to go if you can't concentrate in your room* and noise from your flatmates.

One to be remembered:
An act of servant hood touched my heart today when I was hungry in LRC.
I was hoping that she wouldn't come because it'll be troublesome and tiring but at the same time I was hoping to see her *self-fish* but really, I wasn't expecting her to come but there she is with dinner in her hands *stunts* Thank You Lord for blessing me with such a wonderful sister in Christ! *feels Loved*

“A new command I give you: Love one another. As I have loved you, so you must love one another. By this everyone will know that you are my disciples, if you love one another.”

John 13:34-35

Sunday, February 17, 2013

5 Months!

The day is extending! *Grins*
Previously the sun goes down before 4pm, now its around 5-ish..

- If you've not known now, I have decided to fast Facebook and Twitter until the 25th of March for HOPE FEST and my dog.
- So do send me an email or whatsapp if you have anything to update me *smiles*
- In case of emergency, PLEASE CALL ME! 07746150969
- I think by fasting both the social media gave me much more time for myself and people, which is good, but hopefully I don't misuse the time with something not useful like YouTube.
- It snowed last week! Guess it will be the last one?
- I'm over pressuring myself for this semester I think, sometimes I don't even know what to do
- I've grown fatter? I've got myself a double chin! *screams*
- I am still stuck in thinking of a topic/title for my online journalism blog *Help!*
- Don't know what advertisement to make as well!
- No idea of making a web site for my University's Mass Communication page!
- I love this Family of God! Thank God for them!
- Gave chocolates during LOVE Day!
I received one on that day itself from my course mate, quite unexpected actually.
- My neighbor brought his girlfriend here and you know what will happen next
- hmm, phlegmatic and choleric?

We recorded a Birthday video for Bridget today! Enjoy!

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Just Like That

While smiling on the outside, inside I was screaming and inflicting myself with negativity. 

31st January
There goes January *how time flies*

Semester A result came out yesterday,
and I was reminded of Philippians 4:13 today (1st February).
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

Life isn't always a smooth sailing journey,
if the water is always calm, how are you to grow, learn and improve yourself?
In fact, you'll be so stagnant that complacency has taken over.

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything"
 James 1:2-4


3rd February
Today! There are so much things to Thank God for!
- God displaying love from others
these love messengers of God are really doing their job well!
*love is in the air*
- People blessing others without expecting in return
- God's endless surprise!
- Love chain spreading rapidly
- Free lunch! *from an unknown angel*
I think I know who you are *grins*
- There are a lot more than this!
All those little things in life that makes you happy are blessings in disguise..

Being Transparent
Okay, coming back to the point above.
I didn't do well for my semester A,
I was very disappointed and down because I've never expected myself to do so badly.

Until to the point of thinking that I have made the wrong decision to come over for my final year. You may think it wasn't that bad. I failed a subject. That was bad enough for me. In fact, that was my favorite subject of all modules.

But not to worry,
I am back on my feet after much consoling and encouragement from my fellow sisters in Christ! I will have to redo the assignment *seeing lecturer on Tuesday* hopefully he remembers..

After spending some quiet time alone with God,
I accept my failures and had learn to embrace it. Even knowing that you'll be a graduate of a first class degree holder in Malaysia means nothing to me now. Sometimes in life, we tend to see so much on the surface with all the struggles and challenges, but what we often neglect and not realize is the journey that we had come so far, and all the experiences that we've gained and learned that made us who we are today. 

Side tracked
On the 2nd February we had prayer meeting after jamming session.
Our Pastor dared us to do something great for God.
I went home and think and dared myself these:
1. To achieve good grades this semester for You Lord &
2. To grow so much more into You Lord

When I was about to dare myself, I was scared and reluctant because I know that it wouldn't be easy. But I dare take the challenge to glorify Your name Lord! Help me Lord. May I not neglect You for studies. 


What would you do if you were in this situation?

Thank You Lord for the food that You've blessed me today!