This Is A Story Of A Girl Who Cried A River And Drowned The Whole World!

Sunday, February 3, 2013

Just Like That

While smiling on the outside, inside I was screaming and inflicting myself with negativity. 

31st January
There goes January *how time flies*

Semester A result came out yesterday,
and I was reminded of Philippians 4:13 today (1st February).
"I can do all things through Christ who strengthens me."

Life isn't always a smooth sailing journey,
if the water is always calm, how are you to grow, learn and improve yourself?
In fact, you'll be so stagnant that complacency has taken over.

"Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything"
 James 1:2-4


3rd February
Today! There are so much things to Thank God for!
- God displaying love from others
these love messengers of God are really doing their job well!
*love is in the air*
- People blessing others without expecting in return
- God's endless surprise!
- Love chain spreading rapidly
- Free lunch! *from an unknown angel*
I think I know who you are *grins*
- There are a lot more than this!
All those little things in life that makes you happy are blessings in disguise..

Being Transparent
Okay, coming back to the point above.
I didn't do well for my semester A,
I was very disappointed and down because I've never expected myself to do so badly.

Until to the point of thinking that I have made the wrong decision to come over for my final year. You may think it wasn't that bad. I failed a subject. That was bad enough for me. In fact, that was my favorite subject of all modules.

But not to worry,
I am back on my feet after much consoling and encouragement from my fellow sisters in Christ! I will have to redo the assignment *seeing lecturer on Tuesday* hopefully he remembers..

After spending some quiet time alone with God,
I accept my failures and had learn to embrace it. Even knowing that you'll be a graduate of a first class degree holder in Malaysia means nothing to me now. Sometimes in life, we tend to see so much on the surface with all the struggles and challenges, but what we often neglect and not realize is the journey that we had come so far, and all the experiences that we've gained and learned that made us who we are today. 

Side tracked
On the 2nd February we had prayer meeting after jamming session.
Our Pastor dared us to do something great for God.
I went home and think and dared myself these:
1. To achieve good grades this semester for You Lord &
2. To grow so much more into You Lord

When I was about to dare myself, I was scared and reluctant because I know that it wouldn't be easy. But I dare take the challenge to glorify Your name Lord! Help me Lord. May I not neglect You for studies. 


wenn said...

well, get up yourself when you fall..
put in more effort this time or rather do it right as expected from your lecturer. But I don't understand why you failed. You must hv passed yr assignment as you hv consulted them. But exam wise, you need to work harder and smarter too. All the best. Don't worry yourself. Just do it again. You will be fine this time. Take care! God bless you!

Eunice said...

hey!! it must have been really rough to go through failure especially in a subject that you like.. well it does happen..take it as an opportunity to learn the subject even more in depth and better? yup, there's always something to give thanks for :) don't give up!!! and glad in times of difficulty, God's word comforts you :) i'm glad you have brothers and sister in Christ supporting you over there :) gambateh!!!