Easter

What do Easter mean to you?

As I took the time to reflect and stumbled upon this video below *points*

the visuals from The Passion of Christ played through my mind.

The pain, the tears, anger (me), fear and I'm sure there is more,

all that Jesus went through to the cross.

What for? Why?

Then I realized and I was reminded,

He chose this way and obeyed God.
For who? For us. You and I.

  

Without the cross, 

I won't be where I am today

Blessed Good Friday. Blessed Easter!

Off to Shropshire for HOPE Fest!  

Stressed?

Things you do when you're stressed or sad:
- long hot showers
it is like rain falling on you *except it's warm*
- scream into the pillows
- long walks
- exercise
- listen to songs
- be alone
- alternative, just submit unto Daddy God *smiles*

Well, that's for me of course *smiles*
I can't wait to finish this last essay before HOPE FEST!!
Brain not working, help me LORD!!

Click here to see the website *grins*
Criticisms appreciated..

Right?

It is right to be this way?
Somehow things just happen when you least expected it to,
I'm speechless,
wish it wouldn't been this way and hadn't happen at all..

Too early to say I would think,
we shall see when the time comes..
But I really hope it wouldn't be this way at all..

Too heart aching..
Should have stayed and close myself away from you..

Thinking too much..
I'm better off alone anyway.. 
Just thoughts, don't worry..

By Example

The best way to teach obedience is by example - opening our lives to others - enable them to observe what God is doing in our lives, and to see how we are responding to His workings. This means becoming vulnerable and honest about the true issues of our lives. 

Usually, opening our lives entails sharing historical sketches and past convictions of the Holy Spirit, as well as the current events and present dealings of the Lord with us.

Drained

Breakdown?

Being mentally and physically drained
until the extend that you can longer move forward,
what will you do?
Breakdown.

This was literally me crawling and reaching out to His hand,
it is near but it seems so far away,
I can't do it on my own anymore,
I need You,
the strength, hope and deliverer,
only You can bring me through this,
I trust in You and nothing is impossible with You,
because all things are possible with You.

Only through this,
only then I'm chiseled,
because I am Your child, the Potter's child.

Flesh out

Fasting lunch and dinner for the very first time yesterday was a whole new experience for me. It was so challenging because many temptations will come your way to fulfill the desires of your flesh, like what they say: the spirit is willing but the flesh is weak.

Throughout the week fasting lunch until yesterday with dinner,
I begin to see things that I once was blinded,
all those minute little things in life that I myself sometimes have overlooked and took for granted. So much so that I soon realize and learn to appreciate more of my surroundings and people around me.

Other than that,
Dying to the flesh and not letting temptation in even though I was hungry and tired physically and mentally, those times is where I needed God most, His strength had taught me perseverance to move on. The best part of all these: is to be in tune with God once again.

He's there cheering me on all the way. 

Tears

It's okay to cry,just let it out,He sees and understand even before words are spoken, no point hiding it,just let it go,surrender,submit unto Him.

In Your Presence

Updates on fasting:
- Fasting Facebook and Twitter changed and helped me see how much more time I could spend with those precious time wasted (I do still check once a week, or more if I need to check on my family updates, important news and friends)
- Fasting lunch for the past few days (started on Monday) is not easy especially when sports is involved (so tiring!)
- but it has disciplined me to eat proper meal so far during dinner and breakfast
- drawing closer and closer into Him
Even though it wasn't easy because trials and challenges will come with it, but without them we can't depend and draw ourselves nearer to Him.

Things to Thank God for today!
- Caryn finally received her package!
- Snow!!
It wasn't supposed to but with the unpredictable weather taadaaa~!
- the SUN!! *it's a beautiful day*
- Presentation went well!!
THANK YOU LORD!! I was so nervous with my group mates but everything went smoothly!! ALL PRAISES AND GLORY TO YOU ALONE LORD!!!

Hmm,
Things to add, I really really Thank God for allowing me to feel and rest in His presence once again, I'm beginning and relearning to submit and to fully surrender unto Him all my problems because He is in control. It's time to move on in every situation.

Mission in Disguise

I'm back from my very first mission trip in my life!
Even tough it was just two days one night trip,
God have revealed so much to me even at the beginning of the journey to Birmingham.

So we traveled to Birmingham, Don caster(for the night), Newcastle/Sunderland and Leeds. I don't know why ever since I came back from my Taiwan trip, I picked up motion sickness and since then I had to suffer every long journey on the roads and sometimes in a shaky flight.

But I really Thank God on how He revealed so much that I myself didn't realize that I have been blinded and I'm beginning to see my full purpose of being here. Everything starts to click and I am beginning to see the connection and the vision that I have once questioned.

After being so encouraged, refilled, rejuvenated and re-connected back to God,
I decided to challenge myself even more by fasting lunch starting tomorrow and full fast on every Fridays and Saturdays. I know it is not going to be easy but with God and His sufficient grace, mercy and never ending strength, I should suffice until the end of March.

Thank You once again for the full 'rest' that You have given me.

MarchIn

Loving the sunny days..
Except today was a lil bit dark without the sun,
but I had fun playing netball outdoor today! 
Sprained me right finger after for so long!*swelling*
But it is worth it! I get to try so many different positions and realize that I'm actually okay with attacking as well, not only defending *smiles*

Also!
I finally cooked after for so long!
Just simple noodles with an egg, mushrooms and bacon,
surprisingly it wasn't bad *pats on own shoulder*
So I decided to eat healthy and cook more often and not replace snacks as my main meals starting today! Shall not store up chocolates and biscuits anymore but real food..

Something interesting that I found out today:
- cucumbers have negative calories!
Meaning it has got no calories but burn more calories! *light bulb*

Okay okay,
Sorry for not updating for so long,
I have fun in bible study today, though today was more on the catching up and fellowship-ing side, not forgetting feasting as well! Thank You Lord!