Don't know

Right here right now,
pondering to myself, "Why aren't you scared?"
I feel so stressed because I don't feel stress at all!
Is it a good thing or a bad thing?
I have a presentation tomorrow, but I haven't even started doing my slides..
Such disappointment.. 
Jane ah Jane..
I miss expressing myself through words..
Sometimes I don't even know the answers to my own questions..
Sometimes I don't even know what I'm doing..
Sometimes I don't know if I could trust people..
and sometimes I just don't know what to say..
or what I'm doing and what I just said..

-7 more months till the end of degree-

*don't know if i should be happy about it or otherwise*

Well, on the bright side!
- I enjoyed my very first caroling!
- looking forward to this coming Saturday as well